hi
in case you haven noticed, i haven been updating my blog...its still under works yea. well, a lot of things happen this past 2 weeks. a lot. funny coz i dun feel like typing it out rite nw, coz sumhow im beginning to cry.. but its best to let it alll out.

the love of my life left me last week.last tuesday actuali. our one year anniversary. he broke up with me on our one year anniversary. how cud he? i loved him and had always loved him so much despite everything we've been through. he said he din love me anymore. he told me dat when we met the last time, he felt nothing. he said he dun feel anithing animore..

do u noe how i feel when i hear those very words on the phone. i was heartbroken, i was devastated.. its dat kind of feeling inside of you that hurts alot and you noe that its ur heart. its painful i tell you.real painful... i have loved him all this while, loved him like he's the most important thing in my life. he is my heart. why yang? why are u doin this to me..

his answer was dat i never changed. no matter how much he tried , i will never changed, he said.
and he feels dat its gonna be like that forever and in years to come.

dear, i have never cheated on you, never lied ... i did went out with my guy friends but i never crossed the line. why are u torturing me.. and he kept giving me reasons like he has yet to be in ns la, my parents dun agree la bla bla. from the looks of it, i'd say thats excuses. what have you got to hide??? i just dun understand and dun quite believe that anyone cud just not love sumone whom he have been loving fer so long just like that...its like the next you loved a person, and the day after tml, u let her go saying that u dun love her animore...

the worst thing of all, i din see it coming. out of the blue, things happen soo fast. i realli din.

im heart broken, disappointed, confused and is badly missing him rite now. period.

but why??? tell me why...

im glad that god made me strong. at times he made me not to think of you. at the same times i have work and responsibilities to occupy my time and mind..away from you.

im crying. but its ok.

nitez peopLe..